i met a boy. october 1998. i knew instantly that he would be my forever. he was smart. he was kind. he had eyes that sparkled a different kind of blue when he was near water. his smile could brighten anyones day. in august of 2002 he asked me to be his wife. in august of 2003 we said i do. in september of 2003 i went off the pill. we used latex protection. in may of 2006 we started trying to have a baby. in july of 2007 i started all the girl testing. by march of 2008 we knew something wasn't right. doctors confirmed. sa - "severely abnormal". oh - and from 2005-2009 - we moved. me = three states; husband = four. it's been a hell of a ride.
we've made some pretty big decisions in the past three months. we've decided that we are getting a sperm donor. we've picked him out. we've had sperm shipped to the house. we've gotten BFN.
we've been through enough IF. enough for us. we no longer want this to define us - as a couple. the tip toeing around with questions, others telling us they are expecting & i'd really love for my husband to get on some testosterone cream so i could get laid once in a while.
at the end of the day i married the best man in the world for me. getting a donor was his idea. he's a stud like that.
Yay for the new blog. So glad you are doing this and I am excited to follow your TTC story. Fingers and toes are always crossed for you.
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